Perfection a myth...

Does getting into a relationship ruin a friendship?
I mean imagine two great friends. They gel like a house on fire. Read each other like a psychiatrist. Connect on a wavelength which no one understands. Behave like an alter ego. Speak through telepathy. Share the same sense of humour. The entire world thinks there is something cooking between the two of them. And they giggle about the same in private. Yet have no vested interests in each other.
They say, sometimes you yourself don’t come to know its love, till someone makes you realise it. And sometimes a lie when said to often becomes the truth. Sounds like a story straight from some typical bollywood movie. But this could be a real life situation.
One would think if they are so good a friend, they would be an ideal couple too when in a relationship. Typically yes, but this is where one goes wrong most of the times. Sometimes best friends turn out to be disastrous when in a relationship. Though most of us disagree on that, for simple reasons like if they are so good with each other and they so understand each other. It would be easier for them to make each other happy. Cause its like pleasing yourself. Remember they are like mirror image of each other.
Sadly this is never the case. Most of the best friends when in a relationship become a very sad couple. Cause A) we tend to expect a lot in a relationship, which is as good as zilch in friendship. Friendship gives a lot of space, freedom, understanding and all that. This somehow is missing in relationship. Most human beings tend to become possessive and jealous. This is normal I personally would not like to see my guy flirting around, however big a flirt I may be. Call it double standards or whatever.
B) in a relationship one tends to loose his/her identity. Most of us do things which please the other person, and act the way he/she wants us to. This is not the case in friends. We don’t think / go / do basis wat are best friends like, right? Then, why otherwise, why does it change as soon as one say those three magical words. Ironic, but true.
Everything about him/her makes you conscious, which was not the case before. You didn’t stress on your dress till sometime before. You didn’t bite your tongue before saying something all this time before. You didn’t waste your weekend thinking over where the relation is going all this time before. And so an so forth.
Whatever said and done, I am still not convinced that everything is so lopsided as a result of such conversion. I am sure there are certain advantages too, which I am suppose to be missing. If you can think of any let me know. Till that time long live friendships.

Change once again....

Finally I know what is it that’s missing in me. Every time a relationship ended I would brood upon what went wrong. Where was I at fault? What do I need to do, to improve so I am not dumped again. And all such kinda of questions, which kept circling my mind till about yesterday. I wouldn’t be able to thank that person enuf, who actually pin pointed the mistake and worded the problem. You know its easier working upon a problem when you know what it is. Otherwise its like shooting in the dark. Everybody knows especially when you introspect, which I do pretty often, that we have hoards of things we could improve upon. Especially when a relationship goes sour you come to critically analyse yourself on ten thousand things. And contemplate that this is where I would have gone wrong, or this is the thing I didn’t do right or may be this is wat he disliked in me and all those hazaar connotations. You live inflicting pain on your self, still don’t come out with a concrete solution till you actually know the actual reason.
So I have enuf reasons to write this post a) cause I wanna thank that person who finally brought an end to my self induced sufferings, and b) I am kinda excited that I will have a definite goal to concentrate on from now on. Now atleast I know, okay this is wat I need to change. Sigh its such a big relief you cant even imagine. I donno if I ll be successful in changing myself. I m sure it wouldn’t be a drastic difference but wat the fuck atleast I can make an effort now since I know.
So is that the word ‘finesse’ which is supposed to be missing in me. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t offended when I was told, this is wat u gotto brush up on, supported by hazaar disgusting examples, you know what I mean right. But I hope its all in good faith.
So here is my 3 point agenda/poa towards making an effort for a change:-

1. From now on this would be the only place for an abusive vent, not on the floor, not in public, and not in private as well (sheesh this is gonna be the hardest task considering that I used to take such pride in the fact that I can swear like a man and no less).
2. I am gonna get some kinda silencer or volume modulator fitted in my vocal chords. So what if I have grown up in a family where everybody is high pitched, barring few men (who instead should have been). But its (high) time things improved atleast for the benefit of noise pollution if not anything else.
3. Dressing up doesn’t always mean doling-up wearing oodles of makeup. One can always look good, nice, smart, graceful well-groomed etc etc without getting patched up. And no, nice paintings are not always made on a clean canvass. Sometimes one did need to do some covering up.

Now I hope this works, and I really can do something constructive. Fingers crossed… legs crossed…

I Luv ya awl....

Jaane Kyun Dil Jaanta Hai.., Tu Hai To, I' ll Be All Right
Saari Duniya Ek Taraf Hai, Ek Taraf Hai Hum
Har Khushi To Door Bhage, Mil Rahein Hai Gum
But When U Smile For Me, World Seems All Right
Yeh Meri Zindagi, Pal Mein Khil Jaaye,
Jaane Kyun..Tu Hai To, I' ll Be All Right

Chote Chote Kuch Palon Ka, Dostana Yeah
Jaane Kyun Abb Lag Raha Hai, Jaana Maana Yeah
Cos When Smile For Me, World Seems All Right
Yeah Saare Pal Yehi, Yuhi Tham Se Jaaye, Jaane Kyun, Jaane Kyun

Guardian angel. This word had never sounded familiar till sometime back. I think there is someone or the other watching over me all the time. Be it in my personal life or professional life. I just have to trust my instincts and stretch my hand. And mostly its done. I have always ritten crib posts, on this blog. I think this will be my first post where I wanna thank all those ppl who have at one point or the other fitted into my guardian angle’s shoes. I think I am the biggest creep and not literally (though most of you would agree to it). But creep as in a creeper who cant do without someone of the other, you know those small plants which flourish on big strong trees. I must have done something good, that though I have don’t have dearth of ppl who detest me completely but there are also whole lot of ppl who do things for me without letting me know, and never make it obvious. Thank you ppl, I Love you all, (may be I m in a good mood that is why this eccentric post. No harm for a change I guess). When I have to crib and vent I have 1000s of words to rite but when I have to rite something I feel from the bottom of my heart, I just cant find the rite words to explain my feelings. But I hope u guys understand yaar. I am bad with confessions. Bad with words. Bad with coming out of my actual feelings. So bear with me. I still love you all and will always do. I might sulk, not talk to you, act funny. But will never forget whosoever has crossed paths with me at one point of the time or the other. (as if someone is reading this post)Thanks a bunch. I wish I could write the names of those ppl here. But they will sue me defaming them. Be there.

Eve Emancipation

I have butterflies in my stomach. Why is it that the forbidden fruit is always tastier than the one offered to you. Why is that we are always curious to enter the Eden garden just because that territory has ‘trespassers not allowed’ tag on it. I know its wrong but u still love to indulge in it, owing to the temptation and fun involved.