This is a mixture of all the various posts I wanted to write in the past. Only I couldn't write it because one of my best ideas (pun intended) strike me when I am either in the middle of a bath or when I am about to sleep. So one of the things I figured while introspecting in my half sleep was that one of the worst things to loose in life is to loose 'hope'. This probably would be better understood by those people who have actually lost one. It would be difficult for me to put it into words. Last night I messaged someone that I need to be free cause I want to let go of 'the hope'. This also reminds of another topic I wanted to write on. That is subconsciously even though I keep saying this to myself that there is no replacement for anyone in my life. However when that someone goes who actually created a pocket in the heart you keep hoping that you will find someone to fill up that void. And that may not be deliberate or intentional most of the times. I don't know about all of us but I would choose to believe that most of us do.
That's why I have never been able to recover from my various associations in life and that's why I take more time in coming out of it then getting into it. I think I need a blog which solves the purpose of a twitter too. I have a different thought everyday which doesn't require a whole post dedicated to it, but still want to tweet and let my alter ego know.
This also reminds me that I do have a split personality of a case most of the times. Don't know again if its true for any of us. My other personality could be actually stark different from what I portray or show. I really really wish I could make the world read these lines of mine. It would be so nice to find someone share my thoughts and tell me that I am not the only one eccentric out there. And that there are more people like me so its perfectly normal to be insanely normal. Whatever said than done I would use this as twitter too since cant afford to use other of my public social networking websites.
