Happy Working...

We (read it as me) all are so selfish today. And I have no qualms in accepting or saying that. Friendship the most unselfish relationship as perceived. Has become the most need-based relationship nowadays. When was the last time I called a friend when I didn’t need company for a drink, or wanted to vent or had something important to share. I always look for someone or the other when I am in pits or when I am angry or when I cant go alone somewhere. And that someone could be anyone not necessarily your best friend or your closest friend. There is no priority / loyalty list here, its first come first serve also depending upon his/her mental aptitude suited for the need. Example if I had to go out somewhere at night I cant take a gal or if I had to make a confession it cant be a guy or a gal whom I have already made a confession to say about 2 hours back or something. Remember they say you shouldn’t put all your eggs into one basket.
So when I say I am selfish, I am suppose to gel or get along with people like me who share the same quality right. Cause my friends are expected to understand that the reason I don’t call or page or rite is cause I am moody / my circumstances don’t permit / I am doing fine and don’t have an urge to crib etc etc. After all what are friends for. Some sort of shrinks, trained at you taking them for granted.
However, the big question here is if I am selfish and if my friends are my kind. Then why the hell am I feeling bad for being left alone. Obviously none of them have a need for you right now. No creative writing skills required, no unsolicited suggestion / tips on how to patio a guy etc etc. Everybody is busy and is paid to work, and not socialise with friends. So stop feeling bad about it and justify your job.

Karzzzzzzzzzzz

I must be abnormal not to despise HM who is on such a brave task of re-making karzz. Apparently most of the people on the blogosphere think it’s a sure shot pill for an uninterrupted zzzzzzzzzzzzz in a fully air conditioned ambience with perfectly matched settings to induce the common type of wet dreams. When Farhan Akhtar’s Don came people went berserk mouthing slogans about how big a flop it would be. And that he is foolish to jeopardise his career by making such a movie. No one can come as close as even one arms distance of AB not even SRK. How can someone actually make a remake of such a milestone movie in Indian cinema bla bla. Infact I still have arguments with dude over it, you know the usual SRK Vs AB. Though ‘don’ I think was a very stylish well made movie though it was nothing to beat the original Amitabh’s Don but it did leave its own mark.
But as they say history repeats, I think all those people who are raving and ranting against himess bhai are just too amazed or shocked by his success. I am not for or against him. I am not saying karzzzzzzzz would be a major sleeping pill or a huge hit, but why are people wasting so much time in talking abt it if they already know that its gonna be huge flop. You know frankly speaking I really dont mind the songs of the movie. And I don’t mind giving some credit to that poor guy who made some excellent melodies for movies like ashiq banaya apana, akksar, all those albums etc. Not all of them are so bad. And whatever said and done not everybody can be farhan akhtar jack of all trades and master of all. Its unfair to even compare.
My point only over here is a) one cannot form a perception without watching a movie that’s its gonna be bad. Agreed it cannot compete with the original karz but if it reaches anywhere close to it I think its commendable. B) If everybody has the time and the inclination to mouth so much of bad words abt that guy I am sure he is some worth to provoke that kinda hatred. Even defame gives a lot of name.
Gist of all there is no thumb rule for making a movie. Agreed there have been movies like ‘aag’ but then there also have been avg remakes. If handled well any movie/song can turn out decent.

Thick skinned may be...

What is that makes someone a confident person. What is it that makes someone really comfortable in his/her skin. What is it that gives positive vibes about a person that yes this one sure is satisfied with life and himself. There is no end to wishes and greed, but some of the people/friends I know of, they are at times (read it most of the times) so much at ease with themselves that just nothing bogs them down. And nothing means nothing. Even though if I had to look at them they could just be another ordinary soul on this earth, blessed with qualification one would not even take note of. You know what I mean. Has it got anything to do with your upbringing, nah it would not be fair enuf to blame it on your parents/society/environment etc etc.
I am sure it’s a self specific problem where you just oscillate between lows and highs in life. Which is me most of the times. Sometimes it is aah I am so good looking at this age, I can right exceptionally well, I have better than average sense of humor my organisation jerks have. Oh they don’t deserve to be talking to me and they are so unintelligent so and so forth. But believe it or not cut2 next fraction of a second the world will go upside down for me. And I would be like shit I am in pits. I am sure there is no body as bad as me. That gal is so matured. That friend is earning is so well he/she works so hard. Etc etc again.
I think it’s a genetic default or a malfunction in me. Which I don’t think I have enuf guts to admit in front of anybody save this blog. Where my identity is safe. (Hope so) But I am on a constant trip of introspection/self interrogation/scrutiny/pity. I was reading a blog just now, someone whom I know of for sometime now only thru her writings. And there were only happy posts on it. May be cause she writes for the people/friends/relatives/parents/acquaintances she knows and it is not as anonymous for the guys she writes for. But I just couldn’t figure out how someone could have so many happy moments to share and be so satisfied all the time. After all she is another gal. And then eureka I realised may be because I write it anonymously its more of a cribbing place for me. This way alteast no one can point a finger at me and say oh she is always whining, crying and cribbing. Which obviously I know I am but don’t want to be told again and again.
Another friend, she must be 6 on 10 in looks, 5 on 10 in average intelligence, but 10 on 10 in confidence. How do people manage such things especially when you are in a relationship. Personally there are hazaar things which can run me down if I am head over heals for a guy. Infact I don’t think I need a reason to be insecure most of the times. One word reassurance, a constant dose of the same is a must for me in such situations. I think I justify that word more than anybody I know of.

Am I abnormal/insane.But honestly I am yet to learn this trick.