TGIF....

Friday comes with loads of expectations (mostly unfulfilled). I am still to come out of my virgin days. When though life wasn’t pretty structured but it was amazing fun. Even though it didn’t make many ppl happy but I was happy to the core barring my normal/regular cribs aka when will I get married. Now there is nothing to look forward to when it is a Friday excluding a little later than the usual morning naps followed by a lazy day . I m slowly coming around from the fact that weekend at that time normally meant a Friday begining with daaru and sutta in celebration of the fact that I am still single … ready to mingle followed by a break free late nite with my kinda of people as if there is no tomorrow. To a movie and shopping filled evenings at south ex, gk, khan market and all those neat places over the next two days till you realise oh shit its over. These places look like a long distant dream now. A) cause now there is no money after all those emis/loans etc etc or if there is it is mostly for savings. B)you cant go on those shopping excursions for it is too far and you are too alone. C) and so many other such xyzee reasons (no consequential of course). In any case now it is like Eden garden, hosting ‘entry forbidden’ after all those bomb blasts. But I am not complaining old bad habits must die a slow painful death. And I am coming around in terms to all that, now it doesn’t pain that much. Now its okay to be settled with a movie over the weekend with 12 hours of sleep. Now I don’t feel the need to hang out in my car which was like a basic need for me apart from food, water, air and love aka man. I am still not complaining.

‘chode aaye hum woh galiyaan…. chode aaye hum who galiyaan….’

Let it flow....

I miss that feeling of being in love. When you have butterflies fluttering in your stomach just at the thought of that special someone. When all you do is stare at your phone every five minutes as if some inside voice in your system told… you’ve got mail. The initial period between love and sex. When you’ve just entered into a relationship its like heavenly bliss no matter wat age you are in. I don’t think there is any substitute for your first kiss, first love, first time you held hands etc etc and all those precious first moments. And for every new relationship its again the first thing. As if you have never had that kinda experience before. (its hard to explain that feeling, considering the fact that I myself have, hopped into several relationships in my hay days). Age no bar, no of times in love no bar, your sex life irrespective. A make up after a fierce fight is one thing I wont mind having a fight before.
And we still instead of enjoying those initial moments of unadulterated pleasure, worry sick, thinking about what next. Abey yaar why cant people just let it flow and enjoy it till it lasts. I know its easier said than done, but frankly speaking if somebody was to ask me about my experience I still feel the kinda of things I have done in the past. Something like living on the philosophy of living for the moment and enjoying every bit of it, on a second chance even now I would go by the same. Although everyone says one should always harvest for the rainy days, should watch his/her steps when you are young, play your cards safely and all that. I don’t deny all that, its always better to play safe and guard your actions so you have a promising future. But then wats the harm in living by the moment and enjoying it till it lasts especially when it comes to relationships. Sad part about this is that I wont teach this philosophy to my kids. You must be thinking what a hypocrite. But I m like this take it or leave it. (Fyi no many ppl took it). So just read this post as some kinda scribble from someone totally eccentric but don’t incorporate it…